Si Yo Pudiera (Bolero ‘Tangón’)

I wrote this song shortly after we moved to Puerto Vallarta, Mexico; part of my first CD, “Patria Añorada” which I recorded the other musicians in Mexico City at Mextli Studios and laid down my vocals and other keyboards in the studios of Jorge Patrono, in Los Angeles.

My original idea was to record it as a Bolero with a “Tango” air. The challenge was that I knew no one who actually played bandeoneón, the beautiful Argentine descendant of the Concertina. The day I arrived in Mexico City, on the eve of our recording sessions, I visited the studio for the first time, and there I found Cesar Olguin, who just happened to be there recording some tracks for another project. I had the great fortune of having the best musicians in Mexico for this project, a detail I shall always be grateful for.

English Transliteration, “If I Could Tell You”

If my heart could find a way
to let you know
how a heart could ache
and never show
how a heart can break
and not let go
how I would have you know
if my heart could only tell you

If it could tell you it would say
it never understood
why you had to go
why all this sadness
and if only you could
explain this madness
for with your love
went all of my tomorrows

And with tomorrow
went the tender ways
I once held you
and the warmth of your caresses
now there’s a distant sun,
a winter inside of me
a solitary fortress
for you’re the one
that my heart misses
and if by chance someone we knew were to ask you…
“whatever happened to…?”
“was it a case of treason..?”
Maybe by then you’ll say
what were your reasons
and when you do
remember how I loved you

The years go by and hoping
for a glimpse of you
I haunt the crowded highways
and in sifting through the things
and places we once knew
I find that I still love you
my broken heart knows how
I loved you

The day will come
when a friend will ask of you
and I will say the best
the best of what we gave
and fold the rest
into a silent wave
because silence
was the very last
the last thing you gave me

I store all these emotions
these volumes of devotion…
days go unattended
life goes on un-mended

walking though I’m sinking
hurting yet still thinking
about you, life without you

It’s no story, no invention…
a pain I dare not mention
I live under a darkened constellation
where stars never shine
still blinded by the light of days
when I was yours
and you were mine
could I go on pretending
with this sorrow never ending

Now I’m longing for a new day
a brand new tomorrow
reaching to the past
for innocence to borrow
I call out your name
and with my heart I quarrel
how can I get over you
when will this be through?

A day will come when
someone known will ask of you
and I will say the best
the best of what we gave
my heart will say the rest
with a silent wave
because silence was
the very last,
the last thing that you gave me.

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English lyrics by Rafael A. Nazario, ©1999